Ash Redfern

Although I've posted lot of entries here, but there were all old entries. So, this is the first official entry for this blog.

I just found my new favorite author. Her name is L. J. Smith. So far,I've read;

The Vampire Diaries(Left and middle),

The Secret Circle,

and Night World No.1-2.


All of them are omnibus version, as you has saw. Right now I'm dying from waiting for Night World No.3.

I never thought there will be another story that defeated my favoritest The Twilight Saga. (Well, not this fast.) Not that I don't like Twilight anymore, it's just I've found a new one.

And at this moment I like Ash Redfern the most. And Nick Armstrong and Damon Salvatore, too. (Okay, Quinn and Thierry, too.) I just realized that all of them are bad guys. Yeah, a bad guy always more interested than a noble one.

While I was reading I always imagine Toby Hemingway as Ash Redfern. You might know him from the Covenant.

This guy.

I'm from a place where everyone has a black hair. So, I don't know whether it's an ash-blond hair or not. IDC. I only knew that he would be perfect for Ash.

And I love him!

Girl Power

Original Posted : 6 Jan 09

December, 1st 2008 was the day I knew a real meaning of girl's power.

My favorite yarn store had an End Year Sale event which discount more than 50% (Some were 80%. As cheap as free)

S A L E

Yes. The ones of the most powerful word in the world.
The word that turns shy girl to aggressive girl. I experienced it myself.

The event started 10.00 AM. I arrived(the place) arround 10.30 AM. I thought that I made a good timing until I arrived at the very event's entrance. There were a lot of people, around a million, I guess. OMG! WTH is going on here. It just 30 minutes after started and it's workday! Don't you people have to work!? (Well, for me, I called for day off.) Besides, all the goods were nearly sold out!!

I was completely shocked.

However, I grab whatever left on shelves like a greedy person. Actually, I scrambled quite a lot. (A little bit proud:) But not everything I wanted to buy. Well, Better less than never.

Around 11.00 AM. the yarns were all sold out. (Most wanted in the event was a yarn. Well, a yarn costed 320 ฿ was discount to 80 ฿. I think you would know why) Most of people, including myself, were waiting for a new lot. This...is the beginning of the story.

The moment a staff who carried a big box of yarns has arrived, A million of people who were waiting, of course, including myself, ran in a crowd like pegion fly for feed. I cannot even saw a box, let alone a grab. All I can saw was a head of a woman infront of me. And all I can felt was being pushed deep into the crowd. One woman who fell into the crowd was nearly died. Me myself, has surviced but grab nothing.

OMG!
Who said girl is weak.
Who said girl needs protection.
No! To have what they want, girls can be anything.

When I said anything, I mean EVERYTHING!

Another Hell on Earth

Original Posred : 25 Nov 08

Recently, it seem like I can't get away from the topic "Hell". I just heard that next year, there will be another hell on earth.

WTH?

If there was such an event like this every month, I swear to God I'll quit my job.

Okay, let's change the subject.

How could they do this to me?!

I found un-put-down-able books. Good thing was, they all were a sequel. Yeah, I like a sequel. And some of them already on a shelf. Wow, can't wait to melt my money. BUT they were all HARDCOVER! Imagine what my shelf look like if I have book#1 in Paperback and book#2 in Hardcover? You can't, right? Cause it doesn't make any sense at all. Okay, at least, they give me an estimate time to wait. Well, actually it's not an estimate, but it's an exact time.

A Blue Bloods Novel: Revelations (Blue Bloods)
by Melissa De La Cruz (Paperback - Jul 28, 2009)

Ink Exchange
by Melissa Marr (Paperback - Mar 31, 2009)

OH.MY.GOD.
Almost 365 days after hardcover released.
How cruel?

Oh. I just noticed that they have the same name. Not only the same name they have and the talent they are, but they also kept their fan wait and died by a torture of waiting. But still I fond of yours.

Another Day in Hell

Original Posted : 14 Nov 08



You wouldn't know I missed ANTM 10 and TARA 3 for what.

Some stupid event I never want to attend and another boring welcome -distasteful chinese food- dinner.

Don't offence but chinese is really not me, especially when we sat at a round table and your turn was the last, the food was jelly fish which not normal for someone. While we were spinning the plate around, there were 2 silly girls who so excited to the jelly fish. And so agruing they were going to eat it or not. They pretended to reached out and quickly pulled back (So shallow). They had no clue there were half table -who know exactly they were going to eat it or not. Me myself was one of that- waiting to their turn.

Not that I fancy jelly fish, but at the moment, even an alien, dead or alive, I really was going to eat it!

And then chat, chat, chat. I've enough people to chat. Not interesting to make another. I was sitting there, begging time to pass faster. That, agian, made me thought I was in the Hell. -Last time I check, it should be only one Hell, shouldn't it?-

I heard, there are more 2 events!!
Please, God, don't make me go there again.

The Hell

Original Posted : 12 Nov 08



Well, I survived but recently I'd rather die. Cause it's too much, way too much to..

2 Saturday ago(1 Nov 08) I thought I was spending time in the Hell.

I gain about 1 or 2 kilos, so can't wear my suit. I have to buy a new one. A suit that I wear once year. How worth.

And Friday, Holloween day, hah! I was an idiot who crashed a-2-month-car with an electric post. I lose, well the car lose a left side mirror. I knew, I have a bad luck. (And also an idiot.) I've drove our old car for 2 and a half years. Never hit anything, NEVER. But when we bought a new one. It's turn that I was the one who did it.

OMG, can I blame my work. I knew it's nothing to do about my work. But I just back from work that I wasn't even paid for an overtime. Though in the contract, they said they'll pay. But some idiot (not me this time) said I don't have to work on Saturday, but other have to. So I won't get paid cause I'm lucky than other. Then, what's the point to wrote in the contract if you won't follow it. You are the idiot of the year.

Where was I. Oh, the car. I tried to convinced myself, at lest an electric post can't sue you. Besides, the car lose the left side mirror, the post lose nothing. And I didn't hurt or kill someone. Though I won't mind if I hit the idiot of the year.

The consequence was I had took a bus to hotel. (We had some stupid EVENTS on the day) I arrived home by 11.oo pm. Howw quick.

And the bottom line is some jerk made me hate all of his kind than ever. Well, he ask me to wait for him. I was waiting about an hour or so. Suddenly he desided not to come and forgot to let me knew that part. You asshole. He always treating me this way. Why?

That did it. I throw everything that concern to them out.

And I just spend another day at the another Hell. -Can't write it here, it makes me literally go to the hell.- Don't wanna go there anymore. Really.

Well, Life sucks and then you die.
Deal with it.

MINE

Original Posted : 26 Oct 08

Well...it took me so long to keep you up these days, since I have a lot of things to running which mostly -certainly- not mine.

Okay, it's my job. That's mean it's, technically, "mine". But deep down, there're nothing to do with me.

Such as our bad-attitude-moron-whom-I-want-so-badly-to-get-out-of-my-life driver, who doesn't even know the meaning of numbers. I believed that even kindergartens know how to count numbers. For example, when you told them to line up at a counter number 7, they will do exactly what you told them. (Not mention if your class had a Satan spawn who always do exactly opposite of what you'd told.) But our driver who knows how to drive didn't know, for crying out loud, the sticker which had number "5" on it means to park on the 5th fl.

Just last Friday he called me if he can change a parking floor? Cause they don't around him to park on the 4th. Of course they don't around you! Don't you have eyes or brain or you're such an A-S-S-H-O-L-E. I believe it's the latter...or maybe it's all of them combined.

Don't said that I'm Cruella De something.(Though I'm nearly becoming one) You wouldn't said that if you knew what the primary cause was. Well, don't be panic or should I say "piss off", like I was. He wanted to park on the 4th fl. cause there is a "Driver Living Room" on it.

Well, what's a big deal? All he has to do is move his ass from the 5th fl to the 4th fl. That's it. But, by his words, he made me thought that they have to stuck on the floor they park and cannot step any one of their ass cheeks to a different floor. What the hell was that?

So I assured with a maid who apparently as confused with this shit as I was, "Driver Living Room" doesn't need a visa like some island country does. So you don't have to park on that floor to use the room. I told him that and ad more option. There is The Driver Living Room on 6th fl., too. Whoopy!!!!!!! We should celebrate for that.

And do you know what he said?

"It's too far from the car. It's okay, I'll stay in the car then."

What the HELL?

I hope he dies in the car. I don't care it's not mine, anyway. Wait, if it's link up to some funeral I have to run cause it's technically "mine". OMG! I take it back. You can't run a funeral for someone you hate, when they died you celebrate it!! For God's sake!

Well, that's what he wanted. And that afternoon I've got a warning letter for driver-doesn't-park-on-the-floor-that-inform-on-the-sticker. I should have known. That's why he wanted to change a floor. If I didn't get the letter which inform its' a second warning, I would've known none of these stupid things. 2 thumbs up for him or should I say 4(including my feet) of you know which fingers. I swear to God, I'll put all my whole strength to do with the feet fingers.

Obviously, not only our jerked-driver didn't have eyes, brain, being an asshole, he also didn't know how to move his ass, too. I don't understand why he had to put it so complicated. I won't be wonder if someday I have a call asking how to flush a toilet.

Well, that's only an example. Next time when I survived from the "mine" things which are on next Friday and Saturday, I'll practice my "shoddy" English here again.

He doesn't know I hate him.
XOXO
Want so badly to watch Gossip Girl season 2.

A Surprised cake

Original Posted : 30 Sep 08

Since we finished A3 class, we have dinner every aroud 3 months. According to our birthdays.

Last Saturday was for Pooh, P'Nok and Girl. P'Aoi and I talked about a bakery near a restaurant to buy a cake for them. Since P'Aoi suggested that I shouldn't brought my car there, for our unity. (3 cars 8 pax; 2 pax for 1 car and 3 pax for 2 cars. It's kind of lonely) So, I had to used public transportations. That's no problem, even though, I dying to drove a family's new car. The power of newfangled was very hugh as everyone knew.

Well, Let me explain a little. Ones of our member still have a class at SST, two of them have car. Their class finished at 4.30 pm. So, everyone joined there after they finished. And we(8 pax; 2 cars) went to the res together.

Back to the story, that's why I couldn't did it for a surprise(I mean the surprised cake) , cause all of us joined at SST and went to the res together. I didn't have time to hide the cake if we went together, unless I bought it and went to the res first. In that case, I need a car. As I told you before that we needed a unity. So, our(Mine and P'Aoi) conclusion was after we arrived there, meanwhile we let everyone else enter the res, we went to bought the cake at a bakery -fortunately that the place there was a supermarket which have a bakery. Hurray \(^0^)/-.

I left the cake with a waitress(who was trained very well, also everyone at the res, they're very helpful) then enter the private room. (As our UN-LOWER-ABLE voicess, we extremely needed it.)

Then, none explaination would naccessary. You knew what we were doing after that.

When everyone started to talked about desserts, I met P'Aoi's eyes and we nodded, better brought the cake before they ordered everything in a menu.(Only me and P'Aoi knew about the surprise) The waitress brought the cake to me after I told her.

I stabbed and lit candles. While I was going to brought the cake, P'Nok had left the room. OMG!! Of all people. why the one of the birthday gilrs had to left the room??

Had no choice, I'd to pretend to backed from toilet and enter the room. I totally forgot that I let the lights lit. The waitress had to came to told me that the candles nearly gone.

Don't panick!

Thank God that we had a box of candles. This time I only stabbed them and waited(for a little long time) for P'Nok to came back.

I think I looked like some jerk, hiding around the cornor, No one (our friends) saw me except every waitresses and waiters in the res. If I could read mind, maybe I'd heard sth like
"What is she doing out there, hiding like 6 year-old-kid." or
"Does she need a cup of tea? Why don't she just tell us?"

After humiliated myself, P'Nok finally came back from toilet. I hurry lit the candles before someone'd left the room again. I brought the cake into the room -well, whether they'd alresdy knew or not(I'd left the room many times to prepared the surprise)- they glad for the cake. And me too, it's delicious. 3 lbs cake gone and had left only an empty box. Don't ask how much I ate.

I didn't mention how fun we were,did I?
Yeah, I think we all had a great time. Meet friends we used to met every Saturday for 3 years. Ate a lot of food.(Great for the stomach. Bad when I've to diet -which I never do-.) Talked and laughed so much that maybe we digested all of food we ate.

I heard someone had asked about the next. Not that I don't wanna meet them but for my purse's sake, maybe we should wait until money had come to rest at my purse, then, we will meet again.

Slipshod

Original Posted : 19 Sep 08

OMG!! What a slipshod person!
I am an idiot!

Yesterday, I totally forgot to tell the driver about my Boss's today schedule. He'd to go to EMJ at 8.00 am.

It popped in my head around 6 in this morning -of course I was sleeping-. I was panicing since then. I'd tried to contact the driver and also the driver is an idiot, too. He turned off his phone. I called him like every 5 minutes to heard the darn voice mail. First time in my life, I leave a message. I know my reputation depend on it, let alone my job.

Well, I was still trying to reach him. I knew he didn't get the massage yet, cause he didn't call me back as I said he must when he got it.

7.45 am. -Thank God- he finally turn on the phone. I sorried him I forgot to tell him and told him the schedule. And thank whatever out there, he almost arrive Boss's house. That when I can breath again.

Hairbreadth!

A Beautiful Mind

Original Posted : 18 Sep 08

Just another boring day, waiting for pass by. 2 more days, only 2 till my precious day.

I wish people would stop telling me to do or not to do things. How annoy it could be? It seem like you were John Nash from A Beautiful Mind. Having some bossy guys stick around and annoy you all the time. It seem good in the first place. And then you realize that being ordered, sometimes it could do nothing to you. Except,extremely annoying!!

Whether right or wrong, I do not care. Butt out!!

The mission completed!!!

Original Posted : 4 Aug 08

YES!!!!!
I did it. I made it.

About 25 minutes left. And I'll fly to get "Breaking Dawn". Meanwhile, I've to stay away from every homepages that may contain spoiler. Last minute, I'd came very very close. I don't wanna ruin that myself. Just wait 'til I finish it. And I'll read everything in every page.

I'm ready to go crazy!!

1.30 PM.
Finally, I've got it!

As soon as the first ticking ticked at 12.00 PM. I flew from office door to BTS., to went to Kino. I could say that, If I can, I'll fly directly to Kino myself.

It's 20% off!! What a good news!!
And now,I have to wait 'til 5.00 P.M. It's the hardest thing to do when you have something you want to do right in front of your hands. But you have to wait. (In my case it's lying still in my drawer. Hard to resist,Right?)

Boss, can I off now, please? I've important mission to do.

This mission must be possible

Original Posted : 28 Jul 08

143 pages completed.

549 pages to complete within Aug 3rd.

I can do this. Of course, I can.

I must!!

Can't wait to have Braking Dawn in my hands.
OME, I've already finished it in delusion.
What a crazy fanatic.

I'm gonna explode

Original Posted : 21 Jul 08


Yeah, I'm gonna explode. Actually I did.

Twilight is the best vampire fiction ever.

Edward, you're irresistible.
Even you're not a vegan, it's still hard to resist, But in fact you are.
So, no evasion.
And I won't worry about my little poodle. Cuase I pet nothing. :p
Well, Jasper, too.
I know, you're trying your best.

Waiting is torture!!

Let Me Be

Original Posted : 2 Jul 08

Every time of every moment of everyday
I've to do what other people say
Not even Saturday or Sunday
I'm nearly can't stand it, so I've to pray
Please go away please go a way
and let me be

A Cruel Lesson

Original Post : 13 May 08


My First trip was SUCK!!
HORRIBLY SUCK!!!!!
It makes me don't want another trip.
And I've got one cruel lesson from this trip.

"Don't companion your friends and sibling, it's the suckest thing ever!!"

Next time, I'll go by myself. (Did I just say that it won't be a second time :p)
I still wanna go to the France.
Hah! Same problem happens again. Have no company.
Well, If I had to stuck with that problem again,
I choose to go by myself.

It doesn't matter...

Original Posted : 28 Feb 08

Ok...
It doesn't matter, he knows how to ride a horse but not a car.
It doesn't matter, he has spurs on his boots.
It doesn't matter, he's born in 1830.
It doesn't matter, he's well.. no longer need to breathe anymore.
It doesn't matter, he's not human. Ok. not even exist.
But, for the guy who has extremely nice abs (even though I never saw it) It's worth.
Yeah. I've a HUGH crush on him.
Nombre de dios!!

Jesse De Silva

Let it Be

Original Posted : 11 Oct 07

Just last week, There're sth new came into my life. I've tried to be friendly, but it's seem like I clap a hand. Maybe it's time to pay for what I have done.

It's "Karma".

Life is suck. That's the way it is. I have to let it be.

I still wanna go to France. I think I'm ready. I have everything but someone to go with me. If I could, I'll go by myself. But it doesn't easy as say a word. It's easy when we were asked for help, but it's the hardest thing when we ask someone for help. That's the way it is.

Let it be.

Holiday

Original Post : 11 Sep 07

After I watched "The Holiday". I starting realize that I need a holiday too. Since I've worked, I never got a vacation.

I need it right now!!!
I need to go somewhere else.

Somewhere far from here.
Far from people I knoew.
Far from everything.

I just realized that I didn't wanna stay home when I've time as I used to say before.
I just need some relaxed moment that
I've never had!!!

Next Saturday will be the last course.
The last one that I'm continuing for 3 years!!
Finally, I'll finish it on next Saturday.
Thank God!!

They

Original Post : 18 Jun 07


I wanna write something, but I've nothing to write -- --"

It seem like I've some feeling that charging me.
But, I don't know how to put down in a word.
It's easy to think, but it's hard when you want
other people to understand what's in your mind.

It doesn't matter when they said so.
But it does when you said so.
Who are "They"?
Why do they always knows everything?
Why do they've to involve with everything?

Let it be!!
Let me be!!!
I exactly know what I wanna do or wanna look.
I dress what I want. NOT what other people want.
As long as I'm not naked. Please shut your mouths up.

P.O.T.C.

Original Posted : 1 Jun 07

Can't stop searching everything about "Pirates of the Caribbean"

After watched the third, I rent the first and the second. I watching for a million times. Over and over and over and over. How worth??

Should I buy them now? or Should I wait for a box set which including the third? It's driving me crazy!! Everything about the movies especially "Will Turner"!!! And I can't stop my passion to watch the third again!!!!!

Sooner or later, I'm pretty sure that, I'll go for it agian.

Well...maybe twice or more ;)

The Thind Call "Human"

Original Posted : 21 May 07

Yesterday, I went to JFBKK to register for kanji course. 10 a.m. I reached there and wait till 12.30 p.m. They started to distributed gueue cards. It's very displeasing that when you following the rule by reserve a queue by yourself and not take the queue for your friend if he/she didn't appear. But, right infront of my face. There was someone who came late and take the place infront of my queue!!! Damn you. Why did I have to following the rule if someone did not.

Me and my friend were waiting for 2nd register for another course. It happened when one course has fulled and have some people asked teachers to put them in the class even it'd fulled. What the hell were you people thinking?? There are many people need to attend to that class too. But, they accepted the rule and didn't make the teachers have messy feeling by asked such a damn request!! If they accepted you people, they have to accept everyone who want to attend the class. Did the rule was made to break?!

Birthday

Original Post : 9 Mar 07


7 March is my birthday. Yes, It's 2 days ago.

It's just me or it's true?? This year was very quiet and quite lonely. I didn't contact my old friends for a long time. So, It's seem like they'd forgot my birthday TT 0 TT. So sad. But thanks you guys who remember and blessed me.

My friend said,

"I must think about the future."
"Does the jod I'm doing stable?"
.
.
.
I've to say "No"
.
.
.
I'm a staff of A Company, but I didn't work there. I'm working at B Company, but I'm not B Company's staff too. I'm a staff of nowhere. Why do I have to work for someone who don't care me?

Isolation

Original posted : 26 Jan 07

I'm sitting here in the boring room
It's just another cloudy Friday afternoon
I'm wasting my time
I got nothing to do
I'm hanging around
I'm waiting for someone
But nothing ever happens and I wonder

I'm driving around in my car
I'm driving too fast
I'm driving too far
I'd like to change my point of view
I feel so lonely
I'm waiting for someone
But nothing ever happens and I wonder

I wonder how I wonder why
Yesterday someone told me 'bout the way out
And all that I can see is just a labyrinth
I'm turning my head up and down
I'm turning turning turning turning turning around
And all that I can see is just the labyrinth

I'm sitting here I miss the concentration
I'd like to go out yelling out
But there's a heavy cloud inside my head
I feel so tired
Put myself into bed
Well, nothing ever happens and I wonder

Isolation is not good for me
Isolation I don't want to get lose in the labyrinth

I'm steppin' around in the desert of joy
Baby anyhow I'll get another toy
And everything will happen and you wonder

I wonder how
I wonder why
Yesterday you told me 'bout the solution
And all that I can see
and all that I can see
and all that I can see
Is just the labyrinth

- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -

Fool's Garden, I'm sorry that I messed up your song. And thanks for wrote this song. It's very suitable for me.

Maybe isolation is good for me. Cause I've stuck in the labyrinth. Thanks god for gave me an isolation. It's a very good friend.

English is the best way to communicate with people all around the world. It's better than some. Let's practice English!!! Right or wrong, I do not care!! As long as I can write what I want.

People

Original Post : 20 Feb 07

"Don't let anyone ever make you feel like you don't deserve what you want"

Good sentence from a movie "10 Things I Hate About You"

I absolutely agree. I always thinking of this sentence when I feel blue. Cause other people can't understand that I'm not them. Even they said "It's delicious" but for me "It's distasteful" I never ever understand why people always compare other people by use themselves as factors. That's 3 years old kid's behavior!!!

Sometimes I feel like I wanna disappear from this world. On this real world, no one can help you but yourself. Even they said so, but when it's time, there's only yourself who solve problems.

Me Myself and I

Original posted : 25 Jan 07

"What's in a name? that which we call a rose.

By any other name would smell as sweet"

This is one of the famous parts from Romeo & Juliet.

Today,I got it,deeply. When you hate someone. No matter what he/she doing, even be very nice to you. You still hate him/her. (Okay, I'm a mean person.)

Recently, I don't know what am I doing? I Completely lose. I don't understand, even though it's not my fault why I was blamed!!! Why don't people take responsibility on what they did?

Why me?